Life Sux...

Friends

2011-01-03T20:31:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year !! Its the first day of year 2011, everyone is looking forward.
Well, even so, i might wanna do a short post here..since its my dumping area.

Firstly, what made me write again was the thought of my friends that I've been neglecting. It felt sick, seriously.
Wont deny its already the past but yea, it sucks. All this time, I've been spending my time with my girlfriend, on my work, meeting new people, expanding my social circle, yet its doesn't beat those that have been around for so long. Once in a while i met up with some, the rest were unable to, everyone is busy with their schedules, unlike the old times where we waste our youth like it was nothing,( but hey! that period of time rocks ! Miss the good ol' days). Ever since I've hook up a new line, my previous one went dead silent. Anyway, i was the one who started to drift away. Initially friends did invite me for outings, clubbing, hang out and etc etc, but i wasn't as interested as before and after a few months they gave up. Well, i just wanna apologize that it turned out this way.

Secondly, my work life. Been working for a year and half, hop around, got better. Better environment, better salary ( though it still sucks. Just having 2 companies to compare for now. ), better colleagues and better employers. Its more carefree too, there's no giraffe, not so much of politics, better benefits. Well its still too early to talk about my current workspace, since i just joined them for 5 mths.

Next up, my relationship. Ok, not much to talk about or rather not gonna disclose so much about, just to let you all know im having a good one now.

Lastly, i hope i will be forgiven and our friendship will maintain and maybe to have a meet up if possible. I miss the laughter we used to have.

2009-09-05T19:46:00.000+08:00

http://anyonewantcoffee.onsugar.com/

new place =)

JOB SEARCH

2009-07-22T00:58:00.001+08:00

Hey peep.

Bad news.

Need JOB BADLY.

Lookout for me?

toning down

2009-07-15T07:53:00.003+08:00

HELLO!
Its me again.
LoL.
Well..just to let the readers know that i am busy recently
and might not have time to do updates.
So, thanks for reading my blog all these while and i'll be right back. =)
Just wish my luck in whatever i do ok?
LOL.

Take care everyone.
Be cheerful aite. =)

long lost hangover

2009-07-10T14:35:00.003+08:00

HEHEHEHEHEHE...
met up with a LONG-LOST friend of mine..
Mr. Hangover...
heh heh..
cause of him i'm having bad headache now,
but when was the last time i had one ^^
its kinda good to have him again
HAHA.

stupid nite.
was slping ytd and a call came in asking me for accompany..
the venue made it worse, town. =.=
anyway..caught a movie, connecticut.
one word, boring.

after that wanted to head home yet was pulled to a bar.
stupid idea.
had a few drinks, a few games.
Memories created.

overall, STUPID ME.

crazy night

2009-07-05T09:18:00.002+08:00

HAIYO!!!!! I MUST BE CRAZZZZY!!!

=.=

Well..thanks to Sab's invitation, I had my night =)
Thanks to Harry and NaNa for accompany too =)
And thanks to NaNa, i finally met Erica =.=

It was hell of a night. BOOM BOOM POW!!

Harry : wonder why it's "Slow Motion"? Fill u in next time. =)
Sab : thanks for entertaining when I was trying to " decipher " the song. LOL !!!

SIAO!

girls dunno abt guys

2009-06-30T00:37:00.002+08:00

Haha..received an email.
Quite interesting, tho not all are applicable to all guys =)

--Guys hate sluts even though
they
have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not 'popular' if
you've slept with more than 6
guys..you're a HOE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day
but before they go to sleep, they
always think about the girl they truly
care about.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get
you to notice him

--Guys hate it when you talk about
your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured
often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to
your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd
like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message
like 'You know
what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make
him jump to a conclusion that is far
from what you are thinking. And he'll
assume he did something wrong and
he'll obsess about it trying to figure
it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when
courting but they usually stammer when
they talk to a girl they really like.

--A usual act that proves that the guy
likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love
them if they are serious in your
relationships.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small
thing a girl does, even if she doesn't
notice it can make the guy think about
it for hours, trying to figure out
what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not
other guys. Because most guys think
alike, so if one guy's confused, then
we're all confused.

--When a guy asks you to leave him
alone, he's just actually
saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

--If a guy starts to talk seriously,
listen to him. It doesn't happen that
often, so when it does, you know
something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to
avoid you or is never around when
you're with your boyfriend, he's
probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are
beautiful, don't say you aren't. It
makes them want to stop telling you
because they don't want you to
disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer
than a second, he's definitely
thinking something.

--Guys don't like girls who punch
harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can
see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be
intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys talk about girls more than
girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate
being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy,
just do it. Don't say they are like a
brother or just good friends, it just
hurts even more. Tell them that you
aren't interested in a relationship
and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are
strange and have unpredictable
decisions and are MAD confusing but
somehow are drawn even more to them.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and
health just to be with you, he really
likes you and wants to be with you as
much as possible.

Jap Jap

2009-06-28T00:28:00.002+08:00

Been looking up old friends recently,
splendid time and fun catching up with them.
Had a dinner with them,
was good. =)
Wait till she uploads the pictures,
I'll either tag or leech it.

Its the end of June.
Time to re-plan my route.
Things in my family are getting unstable as day passes.

2009-06-18T19:01:00.002+08:00

Demoralized.

Thats how the way it is.
Thats the mood im in now.

Studied so hard yet suffered a mental block when i took the paper just now.

WTF.
Im just so USELESS.

the 11th june

2009-06-11T05:40:00.001+08:00

it seemed forever
every second felt like an hour
time seemed to slow down
when it was really unnecessary;

i guess i got lost
trying to be someone else,
somewhere along the way
i left myself behind;

everything i touched was golden,
everything i loved got broken,
every mistake i’ve ever made
has been replayed over and over again
as i got lost along the way;

some said i was a lost man
in my own fantasy world,
but then i would probably
be dead by now;

growing tired and weary,
waiting,
i stepped out for
some fresh air;

standing still in emotions
that i cannot show,
i feel there is nothing else
left for me to do here;

everytime i try to dream,
memories still haunt me,
over and over again
replaying in my head;

as darkness comes
and my world fades to black
i reach for life
but grab thorns instead
yet i laugh and walk away
like I always do;
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

The past is over and gone. The future is not guaranteed.

Glad to see everyone's doing well =)

tesco!!

2009-05-16T23:44:00.003+08:00

ooOOoo..just a small ting to share for food lovers.. =)

i was in JB whole day and i happened to patronize this particular outlet [Vietnam Kitchen] at the shopping mall Tesco located beside Jusco. As for the exact location..haha..sorry..all i could remember was the taste of the food there =x

ok..lemme try to recap..terbau city?? guess so la..er..after driving pass their checkpoint..head for jln terbau and follow the stretch of it..u'll passby pelangi, metrojaya and sentosa areas on the right..than u'll passby pandan city(kinda warehouse outlook) on the left than there will be signboards of Jusco le. Jusco will be about 7.5 clicks away(as shown on the advertl board).

seriously i dun really remember the name much la..just know the way =x

ok..now..i ordered sliced beef hor fun. sounds very common, wait till u taste it. =) Its not slimy yet it holds the water so well that after u put it in ya mouth it will then start to ooze. The sliced beef will have to be consumed when its hot as when u leave it for 10 mins it stiffens =( .

my drink was "liu bao bing" the 6 fortune tea or wadsoeva the chinese calls it, take note in SG its call "bah bao cha". There is really alot of differences even tho they only have 6 "treasures"(ingredients). The drink is suitable for anyone at any condition, imagine i drove there and i was kinda cold yet i feel the "coolness" once i take a sip.

i ordered side dishes like vietnamese spring rolls and salad rolls, not forgetting a plate of fried seasonal vegetables. Well, personally i prefer the taste of the spring rolls rather than the salad rolls they offers. The seasonal vegetables taste like fried organic vegetables, not salty, not oily =)

basically, i only went once so i'll be trying out the dishes there more and comment about it. For now thats all i guess, gonna go sleep. Damn tired looking after the young ones =p

oh oh oh...about Tesco and Jusco, hmmm, nothing fantastic, price wise about the same as the market we are in. =)

ego

2009-05-14T11:22:00.003+08:00

yea...i wont deny that i've all those factors that any girl loathe, but the thing is i dun even know what can be done.
i've asked what you want me to do but all you said was "nvm" "forget it".
its not just me that dont understand you, you dun understand me fully either cox the judgements u made from my actions are not all right.

seriously i do not know how we can come to a solution for this.maybe we should talk face to face.

on the other point, i thought we've come to the agreement that we're already impossible like ages ago??? why do you even need to mention it again??

my mistakes my apology

2009-05-14T01:42:00.002+08:00

ok..i've checked the dates, yes it my mistake. i'm really sorry about that.

i din assume as for FO unless u're telling me i dun belong to the category of "everyone".

but be it which ever way it is, let's just close the topic, simply by your way.

ignorant

2009-05-13T19:08:00.002+08:00

have u checked the dates of those questions?
even if its recent ones, its nth more than just a concern.

i've been pulling the distance day by day yet u've to come back today.

ignorant??

and i've not been contacting ya mum for days.

why are u still implying im in contact with ya mum or even asking about you?

my stand is i've been treating you as a friend. trying to pull the distance apart.

dont i need time for it?? am i not doing it??

anyway..u asked me to FO rite?? FUCK OFF RITE???

u got it.

not helping!!

2009-05-13T15:35:00.002+08:00

hais..seems lyk cutting contact doesnt help much in solving the problem.

i tot u've let everything go when u apologised yet we're still back to square one.

how can we make each other understand our stand??

the 11th

2009-05-11T20:20:00.003+08:00

today, the 11th, i'll be MIA and cutting off my virtual world.

to look for me, try via hp.

just so you noe

2009-05-07T23:02:00.004+08:00

was listening to songs..and one hit me.

Just So You Know

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]

thx pris

2009-05-05T20:04:00.000+08:00

thx pris =)
appreciated.

2009-05-04T23:41:00.001+08:00

yea sure.

=)

decision respected.

but i wasnt trying to push u for answer honestly, i apologize since i made u felt that way.

forgive me.

the present, the future.

2009-05-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

there is something that i wanna make it clear,
i dont care whatever past that you have,
whether i know about it,
i just want you to know,
its the present and the future that i seek,
not the past.

i understand that your queen will protect you,
but let me protect you from your fear too.

i dun care about how long you need to overcome your barriers,
but i just need you to step out and let me appreciate and cherish you.

lets walk the days together, hand in hand.

my contradiction

2009-05-03T09:50:00.003+08:00

been thinking quite a lot recently and got emotional, worried for you, agitated with myself, jealousy.
all of this just take me back into the realm of blindness. my attention was all on you.

a simple reply to let you know that there is someone who will still walk the path with you..

i wanna take care of u and be taken care by u.
i wanna hold ya hand and never let go.
i wouldnt mind to be told " u're attached!!".
i wouldnt mind to be told " i love u ___".
i wouldnt mind to be told " i miss u ___".
i wouldnt mind to be told " u're the one and only i wanna be with ".

i wanna be the one to tell u that " I love you".
i wanna be the one to tell u that " I miss you".
i wanna be the one to tell u that " u'll be the one and only i will be responsible to".

just give me a chance.
i really thought about having you as my gf and i've decided.

2009-05-01T16:50:00.002+08:00

imma in a dilemma, to ask or not to ask.
we've been with each other side by side when we had troubles and problems with our previous r/s.
but are we possible?

i fear rejection from u and im worried tt it'll affect the friendship tt we're having, tt when we meet up it'll be so uncomfortable.

on the other note, since u're having a new life and new blog, y is my name still appearing there. fuck.

past

2009-04-21T10:50:00.007+08:00

on the other note..whats your problem with me saying what i want in my blog?? MY blog..and my blog entries are almost about my r/s..i dun c anything wrong..or is there a law that state im not permitted to do so??

wadeva tt u have the guts to do it u dun have the guts to admit it?? y do i nid to hide it for u??

im not blaming your boy too, i heard what he've said before, to me thus im saying he lied.

whats more is, arent u having a new life now?? shldnt u be happy with it also?? or ya that so lovely trustable boy not doing his job well enough? to give u enough satisfaction??

haha..everybody lies..but not like how u did, not forgetting how your boy did too..omfg..both of u are so compatible.

moved on??

2009-04-21T10:39:00.004+08:00

oh..so finally u're admitting that during the relationship u're lying all along la tt u still wan the relationship?? PUI !! u're such a disgust loh..and i cant imagine thatt u're still so proud to admit that u need not love the person to be in the relation with..

haha..and for ya info..moving on by having another relationship with someone tt u flirted b4?? lol..

chin chai la..u happy jiu hao.. ^^

finally !!

2009-04-19T18:41:00.001+08:00

hell yea!! finally u wont be so free to be bothered abt me anymore.

and another note to the guy, u noe wad u had said before, im utterly disappointed in u as well, coz u lied too.

ruining urself

2009-04-07T14:03:00.002+08:00

ruining yourself cause u cant get over it?? hmm..ok..

but what ever it is..i would like to make it clear that u fucking betrayed the relationship and do not bloody hell deny that. u know what u've done and its not what i think it is..i SAW the whole fucking matter happened just outside your house at the lift, that is if u've forgotten about it.

if u think that i've not given u enough chances then ok lo..

if thats not what u call betray den so be it.

u think that what u've done is right den so be it.

if im the one who is wrong to break up with u den so be it.

what i've done wrong in the relationship is to TRUST u, i've never ever done anything that ruins the relationship, not like what u did.

everytime i raised my voice on u telling u its for your own good u took it as i wan u to change to fit into my preferences, think again. if its so, den so be it.

if u're done with me, im too and i've done it in YOUR way twice,telling you that we're impossible ever again, NEVER.

p.s not direct enough?

nick's bbq

2009-04-05T06:41:00.002+08:00

gosh..so slpy..but but but..just wanna post sth ttx so impressive..

someone blindly and proudly lied to me!!! WOW!!

telling me she's invited by the host via sms and when i asked for confirmation she claimed its via Fb..okie~~this is not the main point..i asked the host over and the host confirmed tt she wasnt invited.

LOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

y lie??

another issue was..someone came over and asked me.."eh, she said she love u rite?? den how come she still can betray the r/s?? "

hmmm..how am i supposed to answer the question?? it wasnt me. at least i din betray the r/s. maybe she shld ask my ex instead..

stupid ppl dun change

2009-04-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

fuck. still as stupid as usual.

fine.whatever.

2009-03-30T10:32:00.003+08:00

so..issit really so hurting to c me?? tink of me??

if it is..i can help u easily..very simple..

all u need to do is just come and tell me.

2009-03-09T20:08:00.002+08:00

wow wow wow

ow ow ow

lol..its so amazing how snakes survive doesnt it??

but 2 headed snakes?? hmmm...

there's one girl, which i'll name as A, who said she cuts all ties with me..commented that she still treats me as friend..
yet!!! she went to tell another friend of her to shut up and not to tell A anything abt me.

okie...i'll be fair..and i leave it to fate, if u're reading this and u wanna clarify, do it. If not, i'll just take it as the statement made is true.

To A,
im not bringing up to u directly because u, who claims that u still treat me as friend, doesnt care abt any shit abt me, so y do i need to? i dun tink i still nid to keep a lookout for u too..

the end of another story

2009-02-28T16:44:00.004+08:00

Today marks the last page of another story of my love life..

learnt a few tings from it..anyway..let me put this straight..

u're the one who cut off ties with me, not me.
u claims im not serious, what is ur evidence.
u confirmed u understand me, by concluding that charlene is my gf, well done.
u noted that u trusted me, u listen to what people tells u and doubt me.
u told me that i cant c ur change, what have u changed??
u cling around my social circle, did u notice anything in common?

all this while..four FUCKING months..u made me wasted again. im not giving u anymore time.
a simple reason, u cant even just simply answer my question "what is it u want from me?" and u beat ard the bush turning round and round. If u understand me, what is my style??

come on la..i held u hanging there?? or were u the one hanging ard?? u say i din give u any cold hard answer to fend u off, tink back. i treat u nicely u climb over my head pushing your limits. u asked me ever put myself in your shoe, HAVE U PUT URSELF IN MY FUCKING SHOES!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK HAVE U DONE TO ME TO CAUSE THE FUCKING BREAK UP??!! LIM BEI FUCKING GIVE U HOW MANY CHANCES? NOT ENOUGH?? ASK ME GIVE U TIME TO CHANGE YET FUCKING 4 MTHS U CHANGE NTH!!

u listen selectively.

u're unable to commit.
u're not heeding my advices.
u wont feel pain unless u fall.

so be it. =) be everyone's guest.

lastly, u said bye to me, and so did i. i do not wish to hear from you anymore. i had enough. im not wishing u to have a smooth life ahead coz i believe i've treated u nice enough since i promised u to be friends.another thing is that hanging out with my social circle yet u've not changed any bit i would say u're really hopeless. go find your own friends, i think u belong to that clique. not mine.

2009-02-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

heyall..try it..its damn fun..quite accurate for me..i din really think abt it when answering..just by nature =)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-02-11T14:27:00.003+08:00

VIRGO - The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22)
Dominant In relationships.
Conservative.
Always wants the last word.
Argumentative.
Worries.
Very smart.
Dislikes noise and chaos.
Eager.
Hardworking.
Loyal.
Beau tiful.
Easy to talk to.
Hard to please.
Harsh.
Practical and very fussy.
Often shy.
Pessimistic.

LOL

losing faith

2009-01-31T09:04:00.002+08:00

the day when u told me the reason for ur tattoo..i tot my wait is over..u're finally starting to grow up..

ha! i was so naive.

in msn u claims tt u seriously wanna move on..u keep saying how sorrowful u are in the virtual world..
yet yesterday u tell me tt u're suffering waiting for me??
are u even in the real world??

who's waiting for who??

since u've decided to move on den y meet me to tell me those stuffs??
i considered tt its ur bday and i nv reject meeting u aft my klazz..yet u've to destroy the mood with ur own hands..

nvm..told me u're heading home aft dinner..end up lei?? u're @ town..which and when are your words true??

answers answers answers.

2009-01-20T00:20:00.002+08:00

neverending.

1 question asked 1 answer back.
as that answer is given, another question asked.

where's or when's it going to stop??

enough.

turn into a butterfly soon and fulfil ya wish.

meanwhile i shld step aside, if that's what u ask for.

ranting again

2009-01-17T23:34:00.002+08:00

omfg..it just piss me off so much tt i need to rant again..

1 : yes i want changes in u but cant u just fucking understand its all those tts for your own good??
2 : i love u for who u are but not after what u did in between.
3 : i waited for u so desperately and i tink i was stupid to do so.
4 : everything tt u did was monitored yet i din comment anything cause it aint my control, yet did i say anything abt it?? i kept quiet.
5 : u told me tt u've stop doing what i dislike.
6 : u wont be at zoukout nor wearing like that. not including u'ld be drunk..
u're just fucking denial.
7 : how am i to give u another just based on your words??
8 : u're still seeking attention from everyone.

there are so many more abt u. u wanna noe whats good in u?? u can endure my temper.what else??

u dunno how to pack stuffs.
u dunno how to behave during different situations.
u dunno how to be street smart.
u dunno how to differentiate what is important to u and so many more.

what's your definition of love??ask yourself..is it same as mine??
what is my definition??do u even noe??

r/s

2009-01-17T14:38:00.002+08:00

haha..been attending 4 days of sch..one of which i was taught by my teacher..she says : "its forgivable to find man unfaithful but its unforgivable for the ladies to be unfaithful. " " To love is to serve, to hate is to suffer. " "Loving and hating is tiring but love is memorable and hearwarming."

how true. at least for me, as there's only one reason. I'm faithful ttx y i expect the same from my partner.

apparently, days,weeks,months had passed yet nth changed in her. She's still taking short cuts in her life..going around arousing everyone's attention unknowingly, being denial.

I'm more of a traditional guy when comes to some matters, but am i so difficult to understand? To please?? I've been v lonely since tt day, i've been tryin to waste my days, trying, finding ways to pass my time all for what? To wait for her to change, apparently to me..she just told me i've wasted my time by your ACTIONS.

I dont care how bad she's choosing words, how stupid she is, im more concern abt what u're doing to show me u're worthy of me loving u.Seems to me there's nth i can do to help anymore..im utterly disturbed by what u're doing.

I'm just trying to find someone to settle down.Why cant u be the one.

Disappointment.

first day @ MDIS

2009-01-12T20:12:00.000+08:00

sch rox!

=)

sch sch sch!!

2009-01-11T17:18:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!! SONG BOH!!!!!!!!!!!
SCH'S STARTING!!!!!!!

hope i'll excel man..really regretted not studying well previously..

nth much im concern abt now..maybe its beta this way..i dunno..

even putting aside ya character..u've not changed much..

2009

2009-01-03T08:35:00.002+08:00

Anyone wanna pull me out of 2008??

im still living in 2008..i need help..anyone??

fill my mind with stuffs..help me remove the memories i had..

i wanna be fresh new too..

im really tired..

to 2008

2008-12-31T18:12:00.002+08:00

Goodbye 2008 =)

Welcome 2009 =)

Brand new year..brand new beginning..brand new life..brand new me..

i really hope so..

Goodbye

2008-11-26T10:36:00.001+08:00

Goodbye everyone..im leaving SG soon =) will post when im back again..

LOL

2008-11-20T20:37:00.002+08:00

hahaha..u've done all u could???

den it just show tt u're not listening to wad i've said b4..

all over and done with?? good good..this is what u say..dont regret..

hahahahaha...

My Horoscope Reading..

2008-11-12T20:20:00.002+08:00

just bored..so copied and pasted a horoscope reading :

VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships.. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Ha rsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

hmmm??? how true??

My Heart

2008-10-20T09:03:00.005+08:00

This has always been my fav song.
This is how i feel now. or am i cold once again?

Wait And Bleed

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

GOODBYE!

I wipe it off on tile, the light is brighter this time
Everything is 3D blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up
This is not the way I pictured me
I CAN'T CONTROL MY SHAKES!
How the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong
I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

GET OUTA MY HEAD CUZ I DON'T NEED THIS!
Why didn't I see this?
I'm a victim--Manchurian Candidate
I-HAVE-SINNED-BY-JUST
Makin my mind up and takin your breath away

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

GOODBYE!

You haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
My flesh was in my bones
The pain is always free

You haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
The flesh was in my bones
The pain is always free

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

AND IT WAITS FOR YOU

Virgo

2008-08-21T03:44:00.002+08:00

VIRGO - The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22)

Dominant In relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argume ntative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Easy to talk to.Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy.

lol ??

2008-08-21T02:52:00.000+08:00

(Three answers most scared by men)

(Whatever)
Men: What to have for dinner?
Women: Whatever..
Men: Why not we have steamboat?
Women: Don't want la, eat steamboat later got pimples in my face
Men: Alright, why not we have Si Chuan cuisine
Women: Yesterday ate Si Chuan, today eat again?
Men: Hmm..... I suggest we have seafood
Women: Seafood no good la, later I got diarrhea
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women : Whatever..

(Anything)
Men: So what should we do now?
Women: Anything
Men: How about watching movie? Long time we didn't watch movie
Women: Watching movie no good la, waste time only
Men: How about we play bowling, do some exercises?
Women: Exercise in such hot day? You not feel tire meh?
Men: Then find a caf¨¦ and have drink
Women: Drink coffee will affect my sleep
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: Anything

(You decide)
Men: Then we just go home lo
Women: You decide
Men: Let take bus, I will accompany you
Women: Bus is dirty and crowded. Don't want la
Men: Ok we will take Taxi
Women: Not worth it la... for such a short distance
Men: Alright, then we walk lo. Take a slow walk
Women: What to walk with empty stomach woh?
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: You decide
Men: Let's have dinner first
Women: Whatever...
Men: Eat what?
Women: Anyting
(Look around... no one here, gonna kill her....)

Time's Up.

2008-08-14T11:46:00.001+08:00

Let me go..i cant breathe like how i use to anymore..

LIAR LIAR!!

2008-04-10T22:26:00.003+08:00

well well..doing nothing now..so came here to blog..wanted to post something that's happy..but things happen..and now i just wanna rant!!

u know what?? i hate liars..

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DESCEND TO HELL!! WHY THE FARK IS THERE THE NEED TO LIE!!

are these reflections??

2008-03-08T04:30:00.002+08:00

well well well..was bored..and happened to be free for a moment..been hanging out late nights..as usual..just that now of different groups and spots..

lately been hanging out at chong pang nasi lemak..guess what ??? its getting routine!!! omfg..its bad la..getting more boring each passing nights..the usual ones will be me my girlfriend pris leon archdevil and kat..as supper time is near..the thought of going chong pang nasi lemak is demoralizing nowadays..a common question asked every passing night " where to go ah?? "

lolx..how ah how ah how??

few other stuffs im troubled too..finance..not about my family cant survive..just that i wanna live on my own expenses..but is it possible?? im just a F****** NSF !!! nbccb can!! im sorry but i need to rant!! its really very annoying!! the feeling of stress is strangling me!! are these supposed to be necessary?? am i giving myself openings to unnecessary stress?? then affecting my actions and mentality?? im starting to realize that im getting impatient, hot-tempered and unreasonable recently..how??

the next big thing..my qualifications..im someone who cant sit and read..i've wasted my youth during school days..and i've regretted somehow..so what?? i cant reverse the time!! damn! what can i do after my Serving?? work during the day and study by night class?? its a common plan..but will i stick to it?? i dont have the motivation nor the determination..im still searching..

thirdly..i wonder..where is my soul?? everyday passes like nobody business..i dont go back to my station..take MCs..take leaves..take offs..just wtf am i doing?? how the f*** am i going to step into the society with this kind of mentality??

im so useless..isnt it?

moving on

2008-02-20T04:56:00.002+08:00

its a cold morning..was doing my routines as usual..visited blogs and well..guessed everyone's moving on with life..well..its good aint it.. =) everyone's happy with their plans and life..it should be this way long ago..

guess this is it..the start of my new chapter.. =) im happy with how my life is now..except that im stuck in NS.. =.= other than that..im happy i have my friends around me..to stand by me..and the most impt of all..my family..and that includes my girlfriend..being part of it..

a new life

2008-02-17T06:53:00.002+08:00

well well well..here i am now..back to blogging..y??simple..a new life has begun..thanks to my girlfriend..this is just a short post..reason being im tired..did some moderating at WhosGoing Forum and the usual routine for e.g checking mails and other online stuffs..

currently..a general picture of my days recently..got to know a girl..who claimed she knew me long ago..and now both of us are attached..getting along well tho..yeah..honeymoon period..whatever they name it..well..the story goes..had a great day with her on valentine..even tho we're out with a bunch of friends..had laughters..and its really memorable..

anyway..will post again and upload some photos when im free again..gotta get back to life..since she's going to have plans for the days =) if not both of us gonna look like people of age 40 when we're only 25.. =x

song boh!!! =) This is call "Friends And Laughters"

2008-02-11T05:04:00.000+08:00

siansation

2008-01-27T10:28:00.000+08:00

its noon time..and guess what..have not slept any minute since 11pm Sat night..and..gonna do some random rants..

same old stuffs again..i think its time for me to voice out..well..for once..she went to club..alone..and what she told me was she's v happy that she had that night..because she felt so good..so much better..so much lighter..much much more freely..

alright then..maybe i should step out of her line of sight..since my appearance is hindering her..I've said i wanna stop clubbing..or at least take a rest..she's the one who ask me don't stop..well..i doubt she'll want that decision again??i don't know..

she says without my appearance..without my company..she found her smile..

i don't know what i wanted to post anyway..just feel so bored now..

anyway..all the while..whatever i do..she feels that it cause of attention, appreciation and gratefulness from others..is that the kind of person i am??i think she don't really understand me..

well..i think after all this..lets just put it as our styles of handling matters are different..even voicing out of disagreements and stuffs..we practice different styles..eventually..we'll just argue out of everything..she claims that she's tired..i wonder if she ever notice..I'm tired too..tho i didn't say it out..but does she care??i don't know too..i don't want to think about it anyway..reason being simply i don't understand her..

yeah..she forgives and forgets..yet i still commit the same mistakes..i wonder..is it same or similar?? well..she's into petty business while I'm sensitive..i really don't know where our problems lies..why cant we be friends that are happy..my friends says..our "8 characters" dont match..is there really such shit theories?? i mean its like..i feel that its more of mentality problem..and not based on some unproven theories to make ourselves feel better..

i really hope that the friendship between me and her will change..for the better..of course..but think about it..is it possible??if i accept that we were an item..what about her??

hais..guess what..this is something she also don't like about me..I'm thinking too much..too far..those around to me to forget it..no point continue or bother about her..but I've made my choice that she's still someone I'm really concern about..someone i care..guess she doesn't want it..she feels all this are irritating..all this are just shit and craps to her..well..i think its time to stop..

well..another thing was..she deleted everything about me..and guess what..she apologised that she was harsh..but i felt nothing..don't ask me why..the feeling she's giving me is that she hates me more as the days pass..so I've decided to keep silent..yet..the reply i got was she feels that we're drifting apart..i voice out..also wrong..i keep quiet also wrong..hmm..how??

well..she feels that I'm childish..immatured..what can i say?? she had this kinda thoughts since she got back from Hong Kong..

frankly speaking..I'm beat out..what should i do??follow my friends' advices and suggestions??or i should not give up this friendship??

end of friendship

2008-01-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

*blog ended*

she's the one who drew the line with me..so be it..she says i think im right always..i think just forget it then..everything i do is wrong..thats what it meant from the way she says it..

surprised

2008-01-25T14:54:00.000+08:00

hihihi...another post again..well..its about Thursday night..

i promised her to go MOS..so i cancelled Leon's meet-up..sorry yeah..anyway..that night I'm quite surprised she had a few small chat with me..telling me frankly that there's change in our friendship again..but at least this time round it ain't that bad..we managed to talk it out..peacefully =)

for the first time..we didn't argue la!! lolx..

disappointed

2008-01-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

guess what??I'm hurting..its bleeding inside me..

may

2008-01-16T18:30:00.000+08:00

just got released this morning..yeah..i was charged for reporting late to station..

well..was held at the holding cell and since i was on appeal so I'm only needed to be held under custody..not as a detainee..

i just wanna confess that during the moments of sitting down alone in the room..so many stuffs about us flashed through my mind..as if everything was back to the start..the happy times that both of us spent together..

well i really got to admit i miss those days..and i don't mean it for what comes after that..i really miss you alot..so much that it really hurts..to think that now we've stop contacting each other..

it hurts more to know that she thinks I'm at home just because my friendster was updated..well..i just merely asked my bro to put her back into my featured friends corner..to show that i cant stop thinking about her..how much she's appreciated..how valuable she is to me..yet..i was doubted by her..

hais..
y life got to be this way?? i don't like to be maligned..none others would like to be..

line drawn

2008-01-13T07:50:00.000+08:00

i take back my words from previous post about that being the last one.

this post is gonna be very simple and straight forward.

1. im extremely sad.
2. she starts to treat me coldly.
3. she never text "bye" to me and she just did.
4. long depression period is coming back for the 2nd time(first was after the break up with her).
5. totally lifeless now.

lolx..will she be reading this?? im so naive..

whatever..

i've decided

2008-01-08T21:43:00.000+08:00

this is going to be the last post..

I'm done..I've decided to stop..i should have done it long ago..

Good bye..thanks those who spent time reading the blog..

good luck to everyone out there for year 2008. =)

Time to move on..my love for her now stands still..i just wish her happiness..

Like i've said it myself..loving someone doesnt mean to be with her..just make sure she's happy..especially during the time spent together..be it as a friend or couple.

everything is so wrong

2008-01-08T19:32:00.000+08:00

just got home from work..quite a rough one tho..anyway..the day is ending soon..tomorrow will be better =)

2day i rejected meeting honey and Marv for dinner..feeling is so weird..absence makes the heart fonder..is that so? maybe..who knows?

she gave me the feeling that she don't bother about me anymore..maybe she got sick and tired of having different concepts between us..maybe it seems to her that i don't plan to heed her advices/suggestions..there's patience to every one's limit..i don't wish to hit her limit..maybe i should really stop trying to make her laugh..my jokes are too unnatural..

i wonder how easy can it be to stop thinking about her..even sms-ing Marv i can make a mistake and send the message to her..that just shows how much I've been thinking of her all this while..

i really love her too much..been overdoing everything..what should i do??
or should i just let it be..cause whatever i try to do just worsen everything..
I'm really lost..and I'm contradicting myself too..

should i still treat her as a gf or just a friend??or which one she want..

uneasy night

2008-01-08T01:29:00.000+08:00

its nightfall and it felt so cold..

we didnt chat on phone..nor we msn much..and you're troubled over something..once again i felt so disappointed in myself again..maybe i think too much..

i dont know..

sigh..i really love you alot..i still miss you like i used to..i really want you back in my arms badly..

discussions and confessions

2008-01-07T11:06:00.000+08:00

*yawns..just got back form yishun polyclinic..again..took MC for today..no choice..got to escape from Commander's Parade..because of my hair..ain't acceptable =)

well..2day my mood quite light..i believe honey's too..but she's so tired now..2night she's going to sleep early..i don't care..she's not going to overnight again..

both of us had a chat this morning..or rather from yesterday when she's home till this morning when both of us needs to prepare for work..apparently we had a lot of misunderstandings..why didn't we speak up earlier?? then we wont have to go through these few days we had..anyway..everything should be fine right??hope we have better tomorrows yeah =) please speak up if you have anything in mind ok?? don't wait till things get worse..since we'll be on phone every night..

i will pay more attention ok?? =) i love you..I'll change for better future..

bored

2008-01-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

hi hi all..once again..I've woke up..thanks ah Leon.. =.=

time now is 2115HRS..had my dinner and rotting at home..damn..Monday blues filling in fast this week..hmmm..im so bored till here i am to post..

what happened today?? basically..up till now..nothing much..this morning..reached home..waited for honey to wake up..but 1200HRS she's literally still sleeping..well..so..4get it..i decided to sleep..and its nice to know that she sms me when she's up =) there were 2 sms when i read my inbox..and the other one was from her also..telling me she's with her mum at vivo shopping..so i stayed home..and as usual..honey asked if wanna meet..but 2nite was called off..so..

I'm really very disappointed in myself..forget it..it hurts to think about life..no matter how realistic or positive i am..especially when i myself suck at handling my own relationships..i had no problems helping others mend their r/s and that sunken my feelings =.=

thanks whoever gave me this kind of life..i know you will give me something better one day..right?? =)

i had enough..I'm going to change my lifestyle..but i still love you..think whatever you feel it is..since whatever i do/explain..it doesn't makes any difference besides pissing you off..since I'm a trouble for you..then might as well i stay low..we are both straight forward..yet you don't speak of your troubles to me..

Is this called friends?? you said we're close/good friends..
Friends share woes and foes..not to say we're an item before..we should be closer..but whats happening??

mood : complicated ; vexed ; unhappy ; lost

that's me..i think alot..not as if i can control it..its a habit for me..I'm born with it..

rant

2008-01-06T08:30:00.000+08:00

well well well..I'm home..once again..from town?? yeah..

whats following are my rants..so its going to be very messy..

got a wake-up call from honey..as she's on the way to skate..sweet.hung up the phone when she reached jurong..and i just continue lazing on my bed..guess what?? Marv called !! lolx..and reminded me that we're supposed to meet Jensen(oops Jensen dun beat me for forgetting it =x)..there were bit of arguments and indecisiveness around..temper was lost..but everything still went well..and i finally made up my mind to go cause she told me to meet at cine suddenly..so immediately i went to prepare..after i shit =x

well..as usual..when she saw me..look at me and walk away..so while waiting for Marv we slack around Gloria..and damn..it stinks at times..finally Marv arrived and we headed for the tickets..things happen..again..anyway..i knew she confirm wont watch the body 19 and I've told Jensen even b4 she reminds me..anyway..me and Marv failed to convince her for the movie..so she went home(and that's an ultimate move to spoil my mood...thanks..)..Jensen and Kim went to get the tix from Cathay so me and Marv gotta pick up our speed and meet them at Cathay after she went home..

well..we sms each other..even during my show..we had arguments..again..whats new??i don't know..you can say i don't understand you..i agree..that's why things turn out this way..but have you ever thought of this?? did u open up your problems to me?? only till now..finally you text out your thoughts..and guess what?? i know i have not been making you feel secure but I've been considering the factors and trying to think of solutions..yet what happened?? yeah..i screwed up everything..

today..we touch on the topic about friends..and you feel that I'm putting up a show..I've made it clear that it takes two hands to clap..and i treat people double the way of how I'm treated..this is a grave misunderstanding and both of us chose to keep it silent..but i don't want to anymore..that explains why i ask you the question..and guess what?? it was the feeling u gave me..that I'm still irritating you..and thus i chose to be standing at a distance..but still..I'm in the wrong again..

whatever it is..i just got to admit..i dun understand u well enough that's why i piss u off every time..i don't know..

life is so routine for me

2008-01-05T05:45:00.000+08:00

**yawns..just had a bath and back from MOS..

now now..what do i have for u readers??as usual..lets begin with my morning..
well..i left honey's house at 1000HRS?? and after that i went over to Yishun polyclinic..again..but i have 2 days of MCs..lolx..that is just so wonderful.saw 7 of my other colleagues there too and i was like "NBCB..what the hell..all keng MC?? " lolx..the atmosphere was so funny. anyway..nth much interesting about that. so i went home after the procedures were done.

@ 1445 HRS?? my honey woke up..like finally la !! (miss her ma) =x
then called wg.Joe out to sim lim..and we drop by "guanyin miao" too..hmmm..generally..the outing was alright..had laughters..and some food in between =)
following was that Marv gonna meet us @ MOS when he said he's heading down to sim lim =.=
me and honey reached bugis @ 1800HRS..so not much time spent there also..but after walking sim lim we took a break @ long john..before deciding to head down to MOS.

and finally..it was 2100HRS ++ ?? inclusive of Joe's disappearance..we decided to look for him and proceed to our next destination..MOS.. loves ^^

MOS wasn't much of shufflers..compared to those of previous Friday Nights. =(
and once again i pissed u off..i dunno y..yet u don't want to hear my explanation??come on la..Isn't that kind of unfair to me?i really hope u can understand me. and it's not that I'm gonna leave u alone, I'm just waiting for Marv to come back find u first. the reason y i never plan to bring u along is because i dint know how long will i be there and I'm afraid u will get bored..yet after all this consideration I'm still wrong.arh..forget it..isn't that what u always say? what happen had happened no point talking about it right??that is the problem with u, u want me to say out my problems when i have any..yet u don't say yours out when u have..

anyway..I'm dead tired..I'm going sleep now. Gd Night all..

what the fuck am i thinking

2008-01-04T18:30:00.000+08:00

This few days have been real sad actually..i dont know how to move on..how to let go of u..yeah itz my problem i noe..but still??

people always say..whats past is past..let it go and move on..yeah..it so easy said..to make it happen?? itz not easy..everybody knows that..i know it too..time will cease everything..will it be?? im afraid its going to be a tough and impossible one..

i dont about u..but i know myself..i still love u alot..frankly speaking u really made up my life..i want u back in my life..but is that possible?? all i can do now is to watch u from faraway..how i wish u'll be in my life again..just like before..when i can still care and concern for u..to have u in my arms..

in a relationship..quarrels/arguments/disapproval are inevitable and its how both parties handle it..it takes 2 hands to clap..even tho u gave me chance after chances..but mistakes have to be pointed so one can know the mistake and he/she shall amend it..its so disheartening when i piss u off..i noe u'll only say things once..but im a slow one..i need more time to amend..and hinting is not a good way to talk about problems..its misleading no matter how good u are..

anyway..i just wanna say out parts of my feeling/thoughts..im just typing what i think of now..before i forget..

well..honey..i still loves u alot..but u said it clearly we'll only be friends..that is really very sad to hear..

Whatsup

2008-01-04T15:05:00.001+08:00

Hey Hey..once again..im free to blog again..lolx..

Lets start with the morning..well..nth much actually..just went to Yishun PolyClinic to take MC.. =X den went home aft that..dont really know what time i reached home anyway..

lets start rolling back..

Yesterday 030108 :

hmm..what have i done yesterday?? oh..i think i was at office..and i slept literally the whole working hours until half hour before knocking off i was caught for sleeping =.= *luckily only $20 fine* and after which i went home.

Until late night i decided to go over my honey's house since she's bored and brought her honey drink and choc..apparently she din take..so left it at her house..let her take it when she wants it..

the day before yesterday 020108 (erm..that's like Wednesday??) :

as usual..go office..such routine shit..was a smooth day..after work..go back home..
and honey called to meet @ cine..so i went down to meet eric and aj too..following that we picked marv up and head to arab street..shisha..nth much of a day..everyone was kinda tired tho..

thats all i can rmb..

NEW YEAR 2008 !!!

2008-01-01T18:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE YEAH!!

MAY ALL HAVE A SMOOTH SAILING JOURNEY IN YOUR LIFE..AND SO IS FOR MINE..

itz all about you

2008-01-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

Things started to change nowadays and its drastically fast.There are so many stuffs i would love to discuss with you but i had no idea how to start as i had been irritating u. i really reflected on myself.. and thought of picking myself up and be myself again..the happy one i used to be..but end up..i was screwed again..oh thanks to myself yeah..

about the ktv..purely i just wanted to balance both side..and it really slipped off my mind to differentiate the priority ..

i don't know how i should put it.
i really don't know whats happening.
i was told i think too much about you..

but is that a mistake?? is it wrong for me to think about you??
maybe u could help me by telling me how i've changed??

main thing about us is that even tho we had something to tell each other..at that moment of time..we just let it grow..

I've really regretted mistreating u since your comeback from HK..

anyone wanna be my advisor?? time to pay me back when i was your advisor..

xia suey!!

2006-01-05T01:11:00.000+08:00

kk..first of all..am really sorry..caused so much trouble and misunderstanding to all of us..

now..a new yr is here..2006..and good bye to 2005..

a new start for everyone everwhere everything..i hope to have one too..and i hope a new chance is given to everything..

sorry again..i tink itz my own fault to misread and misjudge things..i hope u all will forgive me k?tho i tink tt y u all nv come and confront me abt wad is happening i tink b4 tt i shld blame myself for not confronting and clarify with u all wadz actually happening..so i really apologize to u all..hope u all will gimme a new chance ok?? and hope that we all can rollback to the times we have..can?

to all doze ap ppl..i apologise to u all too if i had offended anyone of u..i tink it'll be my fault for saying things w/o tinkin..thankz for tellin me my bad points..i'll observe myself more de..

thx everyone for enlightening me..once again..i sincerly apologise to u all..hope all our dispute, our misunderstandings and our unhappiness will be gone with the yr 2005...

cheerz =)

friends..the way u class it..

2005-12-27T15:50:00.000+08:00

lol..wanna kip me as friends..wanna believe in me??
shit u la hor..if u really tink lyk tt den u wont jump to conclusion and tok behind my back la hor..if really wanna treat me as frien e more u shld come and confront me and check everyting out..not by juz tink the way u feel la hor..knn..anyway..u wanna tok behind me rite..go ahead..i dun mind..since dere's no friendship between us anymore..dere's no trust too..wad for i care sho much still..

i believe in wad i will..wad i have to..and i believe in myself..but i dun have to believe u..

pissed off with u!!yes u!!

2005-12-22T10:50:00.000+08:00

shut up..zip ya ass sucker..bitch!!

craps!

2005-12-21T00:21:00.000+08:00

hoo hoo..look huz tokin now..nice try man..say ppl..plz tink of urself first oso la hor..stop acting!! pui~!!!

im down!!

2005-12-15T13:30:00.000+08:00

sian ah..now no com no internet no games no everything..sian ah..now i at sch using the internet...shhh...dun tell the teacher wor..hehe..lame..man..i miss u all sia..duno when can meet u all again..haiz...e renovation tt side gave me bad news sia..say dis week cant finish!! urgh!!!sian..it means by dis wk i wont be back in woodland!! sian!!my hp so quiet..eh..when free cor ma hp chat wib me lei..i'll appreciate alot for tt..im dead bored man..

F*** la

2005-12-11T18:44:00.000+08:00

nbcb..dis week not goin to be gd..knn..bad relation with family..nvm..can settle my own..den cb now my friends one by one all so mani prob..knn how to care for all of them sia..walao eh..plus dis week i wont be in woodland at all..knn..how to help my friends..hope when i come back i still c everyone..my brothers..my sista..my buddy..all of ya..everyone..plz take gd care of urselfs..altho i might not really show tt i care abt u all..it doesnt mean i dun..is juz tt i dowanna be so kapo..so take care guys..

wadz happening

2005-12-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

hai...doze days..we were so happy..all of us are together..but y..after that..we..hv to isolate each other..y muz it be dis way?? cant all of us juz cant get back to e days we used to have??
i miss the days we use to have..especialy e day we had..at cuppage..all of us so happy..i duno if dere's masks but at least tt day only laughters are heard..isnt it nice to be tt way...

guys..can we bring back doze days....................................?

happy day

2005-11-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

hey hey..net..thx for inviting me to ur bdae de steamboat..tyty..i had an enjoyable day..i was still tinkin how i shld spend my lastholiday of my term..u helped me alot sia..hehe...thx..hai..now gotta slp le..sianz..kip tio nag..irritating..

prog for 2day..

2005-11-19T07:03:00.000+08:00

nth much la..sentosa again lo..den nite time come back c mit them lo..my kakis..hehe..den play isk again..shiok man..haha..fight till luan ah..

hahaha!!

2005-11-18T15:03:00.000+08:00

RISK..so long nv play liao..but still i enjoyed it~!!coz my kakis are fun~!!haha..(majority la..u noe i noe la hor..)..eh..guys..mit earlier lei..den can play longer..

life sux

2005-11-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

hello..hello..ya..here i am..to blog sth abt life..e life im hving..so wassup..dis is the cases..jux 1 sentence..is enuff to summarise my life so far..

everyting juz dont go my way..

ya..i noe..dis is life..but itz too damn true to be avoided..but wad can i do?? juz live with it..my relationship..my finance..my studies..craps..all are jux craps..wad do i do best??

y is life so sucky?
y everyting comes infront of me so late??
where is my life?
wad is my life??
wad is life??

i dowanna hear ppl console me..i juz wanna hear solutions!! i tink positively everyday..every sec..but y..i still cant live with my stucked life??huh??everyting i do..it doesnt let me hv a beta future..wad does it gif me?? it juz let ppl noe im stupid..im irritating..im juz an arshole outside..hanging out..a person with no life..i hate it..tingz always looks so close to me..but..itz actually far..far..far..from me..y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shld i still continue to blog? i duno..

i shldnt even hv brought my blog back to life..dere's nth to blog..nth..im hving no life..thx blog for reminding me..and knowing myself..i shld juz leave dis world..i shldnt hv step into dis world..im not supposed to..i dun feel i hv a family..e 'dad' i c everyday..is not my dad..e 'siblings' i c everyday..is not mine..only my mum..hu are my kins..i dun hv any..my mum's side of relatives?? they're jux bunch of idiots..leecher..of wad? my so-called dad's money..jux leave us alone..earn it urself..dere is no free lunch in dis world..get away from us..

u guys tink is coz of dis im devastated?? no..i dun gif a damn to dis kinda shits..itz not my money..itz not my family..wtf am i doin in a family tt im not even holding the surname of e hse owner??dis is crap man..i nid a twist of my life..i wan everyting in my way..but i noe..itz not possible..ppl will juz tell me..<>..yea..i noe..im sick of it..i tell ppl dis too..and i noe they dowanna listen dis too..i noe their feelin..life is juz crap..

my relationship..e gers i lyk..doesnt hv a chance to woo them..i may not be suave..but is looks tt really impt?? is hving transport tt really impt?? is money tt impt??y so materialistic??i dun mean every gers..but e majority of it..hai..life really sux for me..i hv tried to tink positively le..

life..is..jux..to..sucky..for..me..
thx blog for making me realising everyting in dis post..
gd bye..
only u can save me..
hu r u..will u be lead to me..will u be mine??
but no matter wad..deres only one person to blame..one person..

me..

gd bye everyone..take care..appreciate wad u all hv..coz i din..and nv ever do tingz tt u'll regret..

boring day

2005-11-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

hmm....nth to post..2day is juz boring..but went to watch movie lo..sky high..so-so nia la..e characters and story line can be expected and predicted..nth special lo..whole day is sian lo..hai..missing u..but no chance..

today's post

2005-11-06T16:03:00.000+08:00

today's post..sux la ~!!! itz a bad nite la hor..knn..do gd tio scold..come back home cant use internet!! knnbccb la..

reviews of 2day

2005-11-05T02:46:00.000+08:00

okok..now..2day..cut it short..i followed mum out till 7++ i tink..den follow her home to take my bicycle..den went to kong hse lo..watch eh..oh..e movie call wait till u old..or sth lyk tt de..den..tink watch till 10?? duno woh...tt tym gt ah..rong..g3r..xL..kong(if not how to enter his hse sia)..den me lo..den watch liao..we go fujie de hse..to eat lo..den planned to cycle them over..but end up e gers walk..|| -.- ||..deni go to 7 eleven at 768..and when i wanna go back find them..they reached 768 -.- (supposed to meet at fujie's hse)..den they say they meet joyce..aft tt..when joyce come le..we go fu jie hse..i tombang g3r..lol..she kip shouting(due to some ''turbulence'')..hahahaha....ji tao arhz..hmmm..den at fujie's hse..they cook some stuffs up lo..but i nv eat..nt i dowan..is paiseh sia..nv chip in..den go eat meh..lol..den my buddy pei me..she oso nv eat..'steady' sia..no la..is coz she cant eat..haha..tio feng mo..hope she recovers fast..hmm..den 1am+ yong and g3r went home le..rest of us continue watch tv..den we left at 2am lyk tt..dowanna disturb fujie..den now i bath le and bloggin now lo..lol..lame..ttz all folk..

rushing post

2005-11-04T12:42:00.000+08:00

arlo all..hmm..rushing dispost for now..coz gotta pei mum go out.....urgh~~ waste my time..hmm....ok.wad shld i write..oh ya..gre8..i got it..i was slping soundly and was kbkb till i wake up...nice try didi..it was ur cry tt wakes me up..ok..hmm..wad else..shld be nth le ba..hv to wait till nite time..c gt aniting to write abt 2day anot lo..ttz all folks..

another post

2005-11-04T03:45:00.000+08:00

okok..here's another post for e day yea..hmm..was doin dis skin..editing itz colours and erm..adding some marque in..duno gt take effects anot..den added song..by huang yi da de..den nth else le ba..nez one is gg to change e scroll bar de color..but c when free den change..haiz..

abt 2day

2005-11-04T02:17:00.000+08:00

ok..post for today..
im tired..

- signing out -

life sux..really sux..

2005-11-03T02:33:00.000+08:00

come on..can someone let my time pass faster..i hate 2day la..urgh!! wad shld i do..im v afraid..

haiss

2005-11-03T02:32:00.000+08:00

another day past le..wad hv i done?? nth lo..fark and i hate tt..plus im farked up 2day la..i hate 2day~!!

sentosa

2005-11-01T04:43:00.000+08:00

oooooo.......time is 0443 hrs now...meeting at 0700 hrs..gee....itz getting nearer.sentosa.!!!!!!1here i come!!!!!!!!! again...lol..man..how many times hv i been gg to sentosa dis mth..hmmmmm......

craps

2005-10-31T13:41:00.000+08:00

hai..wad am i tinkin..wad shld i do..ive been slackin ard..wasting my time..doin nth..but juz hang out..gosh..i cannot lyk tt man..but i miss them..all of them..they gif me happiness..to all of ya all..we shall be united..4eva k..and eva and eva and eva...till death do us part..promise??

life so krazy

2005-10-31T11:43:00.000+08:00

lalala..woke up not long ago..morning everyone..hmm..ger is gonna attached to someone le..someone ttz so on with me de..now..he bian le..zhong she qing you..hai..4gt it..blame on myself tt i cant make tt ger mine..fine..i live with it..anyway..net..y euu nv bring keys out~!! nvm..me comin find u soon..hmm...destiny..u workin..sad..kong and jeff shld be slping..lata..gg find them ba..buddy oso slping..no response from her..my ah kor booking out 2day..but nite time..sianz..but nvm..tml sentosa~!!! big group..alrite..cfm fun..unless gt spoilers..den dun say..**hee hee cfm sure hv some de ** aiya..duno wad to write liao la..but some points i wanna voice out..

*for my buddy* dun tink too much yea..stay happy always...smile~~ cheerz =>
*destiny* erm..when in game..ur "an lian" doesnt work de ok.. hehe..
*net* aei~ bring ur keys out nex tym..dun 4gt ah..
*vonn``* i may noe u not tt well..but we noe each other quite long woh..u take care too ya..
*ger* wish u everlasting and happy life with him yea..take care..

one day wasted

2005-10-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

walao..2day whole day nv mit xl buddy net kong jeff samuel denis fujie and callista they all is lyk so weird sia..e feeling was so empty..haiyo..all coz of my lil bro..bobian..he first mth..but i gt advantage..haha..gt red eggs to eat..yea..!! siao..i rather to go find my buddy and xl sia..hai..they nw gg to jetty..how i wish i can go oso..i wanna go..but parents sure dun allow de..sad sad sad sad..gosh..y my parents must be sho strict..sumtimes i hate them(my parents)..urgh~!!

gurls power

2005-10-29T17:23:00.000+08:00

woohoo..hmm..heard of Da Gurls Power so long ago..till now finally met all of them le..got along with them quite well woh..not lyk last time..juz know each other..den juz sit and stare each other nia..now beta le..holidays..den gotta time to hang out with each other..hmm..not bad lei..6 diff gurl 6 diff attitude 6 diff characters..cool..and they still get along well sia..but itz not surprising too..hehe..coz slipknot do beta den them..hehe..doze slipknot supporters shld noe wad im tokin abt..heh heh..bute main prob is..wad am i tokin here..?? gurls power..den suddenly slipknot?? hmm..sth's wrong with my head..gotta tighten some screws..

bloggy~~

2005-10-29T16:06:00.000+08:00

okok..now..everyone out dere..yea..give comments k..dis will be my basic layout..im out of time..so i left out e music to stream, some stuffs to marque abt and e colours to change..but rest of it are donw..give some comments yea..btw..itz my new skin..e old one(ragdoll) i threw it away..damn..tt was lyk edited by me mths ago..and i cant really rmb wad i change..den now cant save it..so sad..i'll miss tt ragdoll de..itz so torn up..and lonely..miss u ragdoll..and u..ger..only u and me noe..no one will noe hu i am missing..

siao liao

2005-10-29T14:47:00.000+08:00

ji bai siao liao..my blog CMI liao..everyting start to overlap each other..kao..hope i can save it back..

im back..again..

2005-10-29T13:43:00.000+08:00

oh fark..look..my blog is back alive again..but now wad..im lost..lost where? in my mind..im gg krazy..y?? dun ask me ..i really duno..but i hv a new grp of friends..they cor themself..Da Gurlz Power..woo..sounds scary..but dun worry..they're cool..lol..get wad i mean? im krazy soon..

new life~

2005-06-08T06:09:00.000+08:00

hmm..im back to post again..yea..such a long time yea?? bo bian lei..damn bz sia..camps..den shooting..den camps..den chalet...hoo..no time even for myself..hmm..broke up wif my gf too..but was long ago..not too long too..but still itz long for me..anyway..hope she'll find a beta guy...lol..hope her curse will tone down..so wont be so jia lat...hmm...anyting else?? i duno..nv slp for e nite..coz 2days shooting lesson v early..haiz..damn school..y pick such an early schedule..knn..hai me cannot slp..gotta stay up and wait for time to pass..den go ur sch teach u all how to shoot..damn..now go bath..bye~~

dis is bad !!

2005-05-21T15:55:00.000+08:00

haiz..y is dis happening to me..wad hv i done wrong..y do i hv to leave my ger..y do i hv to be alone....plz tell me y~!!!

wad sia

2005-05-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

aiyo..slept not enuff lei 2day.so sianz....den go back mjr tio dua...wakaoz...lucky got my dar dar to pei me..arbo i siao..hmm..den go 768..fix her bike...den go 630 eat..woohoo..got ppl eat chilli vege only..dunno hu sia...hmm.....den hor...go crescent park play bball lo.....wakao..still gt alot of funny jokes of e day de...but aiya...i noe jiu ke yi le..heehhee.....