well well well..was bored..and happened to be free for a moment..been hanging out late nights..as usual..just that now of different groups and spots..
lately been hanging out at chong pang nasi lemak..guess what ??? its getting routine!!! omfg..its bad la..getting more boring each passing nights..the usual ones will be me my girlfriend pris leon archdevil and kat..as supper time is near..the thought of going chong pang nasi lemak is demoralizing nowadays..a common question asked every passing night " where to go ah?? "
lolx..how ah how ah how??
few other stuffs im troubled too..finance..not about my family cant survive..just that i wanna live on my own expenses..but is it possible?? im just a F****** NSF !!! nbccb can!! im sorry but i need to rant!! its really very annoying!! the feeling of stress is strangling me!! are these supposed to be necessary?? am i giving myself openings to unnecessary stress?? then affecting my actions and mentality?? im starting to realize that im getting impatient, hot-tempered and unreasonable recently..how??
the next big thing..my qualifications..im someone who cant sit and read..i've wasted my youth during school days..and i've regretted somehow..so what?? i cant reverse the time!! damn! what can i do after my Serving?? work during the day and study by night class?? its a common plan..but will i stick to it?? i dont have the motivation nor the determination..im still searching..
thirdly..i wonder..where is my soul?? everyday passes like nobody business..i dont go back to my station..take MCs..take leaves..take offs..just wtf am i doing?? how the f*** am i going to step into the society with this kind of mentality??
im so useless..isnt it?
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