losing faith

the day when u told me the reason for ur tattoo..i tot my wait is over..u're finally starting to grow up..

ha! i was so naive.

in msn u claims tt u seriously wanna move on..u keep saying how sorrowful u are in the virtual world..
yet yesterday u tell me tt u're suffering waiting for me??
are u even in the real world??

who's waiting for who??

since u've decided to move on den y meet me to tell me those stuffs??
i considered tt its ur bday and i nv reject meeting u aft my klazz..yet u've to destroy the mood with ur own hands..

nvm..told me u're heading home aft dinner..end up lei?? u're @ town..which and when are your words true??

answers answers answers.

neverending.

1 question asked 1 answer back.
as that answer is given, another question asked.

where's or when's it going to stop??

enough.

turn into a butterfly soon and fulfil ya wish.

meanwhile i shld step aside, if that's what u ask for.

ranting again

omfg..it just piss me off so much tt i need to rant again..

1 : yes i want changes in u but cant u just fucking understand its all those tts for your own good??
2 : i love u for who u are but not after what u did in between.
3 : i waited for u so desperately and i tink i was stupid to do so.
4 : everything tt u did was monitored yet i din comment anything cause it aint my control, yet did i say anything abt it?? i kept quiet.
5 : u told me tt u've stop doing what i dislike.
6 : u wont be at zoukout nor wearing like that. not including u'ld be drunk..
u're just fucking denial.
7 : how am i to give u another just based on your words??
8 : u're still seeking attention from everyone.


there are so many more abt u. u wanna noe whats good in u?? u can endure my temper.what else??

u dunno how to pack stuffs.
u dunno how to behave during different situations.
u dunno how to be street smart.
u dunno how to differentiate what is important to u and so many more.


what's your definition of love??ask yourself..is it same as mine??
what is my definition??do u even noe??

r/s

haha..been attending 4 days of sch..one of which i was taught by my teacher..she says : "its forgivable to find man unfaithful but its unforgivable for the ladies to be unfaithful. " " To love is to serve, to hate is to suffer. " "Loving and hating is tiring but love is memorable and hearwarming."

how true. at least for me, as there's only one reason. I'm faithful ttx y i expect the same from my partner.

apparently, days,weeks,months had passed yet nth changed in her. She's still taking short cuts in her life..going around arousing everyone's attention unknowingly, being denial.

I'm more of a traditional guy when comes to some matters, but am i so difficult to understand? To please?? I've been v lonely since tt day, i've been tryin to waste my days, trying, finding ways to pass my time all for what? To wait for her to change, apparently to me..she just told me i've wasted my time by your ACTIONS.

I dont care how bad she's choosing words, how stupid she is, im more concern abt what u're doing to show me u're worthy of me loving u.Seems to me there's nth i can do to help anymore..im utterly disturbed by what u're doing.

I'm just trying to find someone to settle down.Why cant u be the one.

Disappointment.

first day @ MDIS

sch rox!

=)

sch sch sch!!

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!! SONG BOH!!!!!!!!!!!
SCH'S STARTING!!!!!!!

hope i'll excel man..really regretted not studying well previously..

nth much im concern abt now..maybe its beta this way..i dunno..

even putting aside ya character..u've not changed much..

2009

Anyone wanna pull me out of 2008??

im still living in 2008..i need help..anyone??

fill my mind with stuffs..help me remove the memories i had..

i wanna be fresh new too..

im really tired..

to 2008

Goodbye 2008 =)

Welcome 2009 =)






Brand new year..brand new beginning..brand new life..brand new me..








i really hope so..

Goodbye

Goodbye everyone..im leaving SG soon =) will post when im back again..

LOL

hahaha..u've done all u could???

den it just show tt u're not listening to wad i've said b4..

all over and done with?? good good..this is what u say..dont regret..


hahahahaha...

My Horoscope Reading..

just bored..so copied and pasted a horoscope reading :


VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships.. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Ha rsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.




hmmm??? how true??

My Heart

This has always been my fav song.
This is how i feel now. or am i cold once again?

Wait And Bleed


I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

GOODBYE!

I wipe it off on tile, the light is brighter this time
Everything is 3D blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up
This is not the way I pictured me
I CAN'T CONTROL MY SHAKES!
How the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong
I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

GET OUTA MY HEAD CUZ I DON'T NEED THIS!
Why didn't I see this?
I'm a victim--Manchurian Candidate
I-HAVE-SINNED-BY-JUST
Makin my mind up and takin your breath away

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

GOODBYE!

You haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
My flesh was in my bones
The pain is always free

You haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
The flesh was in my bones
The pain is always free

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

I've felt the air rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can see
Inside my shell I wait and bleed

AND IT WAITS FOR YOU

Virgo

VIRGO - The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22)

Dominant In relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argume ntative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Easy to talk to.Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy.

lol ??

(Three answers most scared by men)

(Whatever)
Men: What to have for dinner?
Women: Whatever..
Men: Why not we have steamboat?
Women: Don't want la, eat steamboat later got pimples in my face
Men: Alright, why not we have Si Chuan cuisine
Women: Yesterday ate Si Chuan, today eat again?
Men: Hmm..... I suggest we have seafood
Women: Seafood no good la, later I got diarrhea
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women : Whatever..



(Anything)
Men: So what should we do now?
Women: Anything
Men: How about watching movie? Long time we didn't watch movie
Women: Watching movie no good la, waste time only
Men: How about we play bowling, do some exercises?
Women: Exercise in such hot day? You not feel tire meh?
Men: Then find a caf¨¦ and have drink
Women: Drink coffee will affect my sleep
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: Anything

(You decide)
Men: Then we just go home lo
Women: You decide
Men: Let take bus, I will accompany you
Women: Bus is dirty and crowded. Don't want la
Men: Ok we will take Taxi
Women: Not worth it la... for such a short distance
Men: Alright, then we walk lo. Take a slow walk
Women: What to walk with empty stomach woh?
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: You decide
Men: Let's have dinner first
Women: Whatever...
Men: Eat what?
Women: Anyting
(Look around... no one here, gonna kill her....)

Time's Up.

Let me go..i cant breathe like how i use to anymore..

LIAR LIAR!!

well well..doing nothing now..so came here to blog..wanted to post something that's happy..but things happen..and now i just wanna rant!!

u know what?? i hate liars..

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DESCEND TO HELL!! WHY THE FARK IS THERE THE NEED TO LIE!!

are these reflections??

well well well..was bored..and happened to be free for a moment..been hanging out late nights..as usual..just that now of different groups and spots..

lately been hanging out at chong pang nasi lemak..guess what ??? its getting routine!!! omfg..its bad la..getting more boring each passing nights..the usual ones will be me my girlfriend pris leon archdevil and kat..as supper time is near..the thought of going chong pang nasi lemak is demoralizing nowadays..a common question asked every passing night " where to go ah?? "

lolx..how ah how ah how??

few other stuffs im troubled too..finance..not about my family cant survive..just that i wanna live on my own expenses..but is it possible?? im just a F****** NSF !!! nbccb can!! im sorry but i need to rant!! its really very annoying!! the feeling of stress is strangling me!! are these supposed to be necessary?? am i giving myself openings to unnecessary stress?? then affecting my actions and mentality?? im starting to realize that im getting impatient, hot-tempered and unreasonable recently..how??

the next big thing..my qualifications..im someone who cant sit and read..i've wasted my youth during school days..and i've regretted somehow..so what?? i cant reverse the time!! damn! what can i do after my Serving?? work during the day and study by night class?? its a common plan..but will i stick to it?? i dont have the motivation nor the determination..im still searching..

thirdly..i wonder..where is my soul?? everyday passes like nobody business..i dont go back to my station..take MCs..take leaves..take offs..just wtf am i doing?? how the f*** am i going to step into the society with this kind of mentality??

im so useless..isnt it?

moving on

its a cold morning..was doing my routines as usual..visited blogs and well..guessed everyone's moving on with life..well..its good aint it.. =) everyone's happy with their plans and life..it should be this way long ago..

guess this is it..the start of my new chapter.. =) im happy with how my life is now..except that im stuck in NS.. =.= other than that..im happy i have my friends around me..to stand by me..and the most impt of all..my family..and that includes my girlfriend..being part of it..

a new life

well well well..here i am now..back to blogging..y??simple..a new life has begun..thanks to my girlfriend..this is just a short post..reason being im tired..did some moderating at WhosGoing Forum and the usual routine for e.g checking mails and other online stuffs..

currently..a general picture of my days recently..got to know a girl..who claimed she knew me long ago..and now both of us are attached..getting along well tho..yeah..honeymoon period..whatever they name it..well..the story goes..had a great day with her on valentine..even tho we're out with a bunch of friends..had laughters..and its really memorable..

anyway..will post again and upload some photos when im free again..gotta get back to life..since she's going to have plans for the days =) if not both of us gonna look like people of age 40 when we're only 25.. =x

song boh!!! =) This is call "Friends And Laughters"